好久没post了

近来，都一直忙着华乐的演奏会，直到前天终于告一段落了。其中，有很多愉快的事发生，当然，也有不愉快的。如今，我已不再对她执着了。我看见了森林，所以大树对我来说已经无趣了。不过，茂盛的森林就让她继续茂盛吧。贸然闯入一定会迷路的。即使不迷路也必定带给森林不必要的污染。我还是继续做一枝路边的野花吧，默默地看着，守护着。昨天，我剪了有史以来我剪过最短的头发。并不是想不开，只是想换个发形罢了。今天起就是放假了，又要一个人孤孤单单的度过了。算了吧，反正我也习惯了。接下来，我已经没有什么要烦的了。华乐过了，考试过了。至于社服嘛，只要在我能力所及的范围内，我会义不容辞的。毕竟，这是一个聚集了我重要朋友的团体。不写了，累了，想睡了。晚安啦~~~

Down season...

These few days, I am sensing that many of my friends were feeling down due to some problems or obstacles they faced. This has made me feel down as well. I don't like this kind of environment. I hope that everything will be ok as soon as possible. 诚心诚意的祝福我所有正在面临挫折，压力，痛苦，烦恼，折磨，困难，以及所有不开心的事的朋友们，希望我的祝福能带给你们些许的安慰。

Today~~~

Up until 4.30pm, I am staying in my room and doing nothing spectacular. At 4.30pm, I take bus from Restu to go to my cooking lesson. In the campus, I take another bus, and the seat next to me is empty. When the bus reach at IK BUs stop, I suddenly thinking of her and have strong feeling that she might be taking the same bus with me and sitting next to me. Then i look out to the window and waiting for the miracle to happen. "Halo". I turn my head. OMG, she is really sitting next to me, and i was surprised that she was going out at that time as i totally forgot that she got ko-k as well..haha.. Well, quite happy la..hehe.. Then after that we part at the bakti bus stop there and i go to my cooking lesson. Today we made pudding, the result is, cant eat at all, feel like wan to vomit the 1st bite i eat. Then after that go to have my dinner and then go to the management class. The class went smoothly until the end, i said something that i feel like a bit arrogant to May Yee and feel like she "terasa" with it. Then i feel bad about it. When reaching room, I have decide to apologise to her either she "terasa" or not. That message took me quite some courage. Then May Yee replied me, she said she din terasa, and so i feel better a bit..hehe..

心理不平衡

今晚，在游子吟的演绎会上，一名陌生传着西装手上拿着一束花的男子，在我眼前向我喜欢的女生搭讪。我就坐在她旁边，很想牵她的手，让那名男生误以为我们是男女朋友，可是我却没有。因为我怕，那一刻我真的怕了，没有勇气，也不知道该怎么办才好。最后，我以蛮凶的语气告诉那名男生别为难她了，他才肯收手。我带着不平衡的心理，看完了整场演绎会。我那时真的是很想帮她，可是我又很害怕，万一出了什么差错，我们可能会尴尬收场，甚至连朋友都没得做。我为什么那么的没用，那么的失败！！！就连保护自己喜欢的人都做不到，那我还有什么资格去喜欢她？我一直告诉自己单身好，只不过是逃避罢了。现在的我，心里还是极度的不平衡。

Getting worse and worse

OMG!!! Just now performance for the new student I play the wrong song!!! What the hell, I am really getting worse and worse and will be more worse in the future. Just two very simple song I also cant played it well, mistake all over the song. Aren't I suppose getting better and not worse? Why is it that more practice make me even worse than before? Now I cant even sound my flute properly. I think I am just lack of confidence, but being confident wont make me better either. Haiz~~~