有感而发

脑里想了很多的东西，但又不知要写些什么，所以还是继续把它收在心里吧。矛盾。逃避。

好久没哭了

感觉上，好像很久没哭了。开心得太久，有时候也未必是件好事。听着一首悲伤的歌，回想起很多往事。有开心的， 也有伤心的。想起了很多人，很多事物。唤起了我心中早已遗忘的情感。有时候，某些感觉，就算是忘记了，但，当你遇到某些场景或某些人，就是那么自然的又会回想起了。感觉是无法被遗忘的，它已经成为了生命中你的一部分， 深深的被刻在心里。过去是无法改变的，能改变的只有当下，而未来还是个不知之数。可能，我也时日无多了。现在的我，选择压抑自己的感觉。不，应该说封锁比较适合吧。封锁了喜欢她人的感觉，封锁了对家人的情感，封锁了对事物的好感，封锁了悲伤，更封锁了愤怒。留下的只剩下切不实际的开心。一个人真的好吗？做了这个决定的我真的不会后悔吗？我想可能会吧，应该是一定会吧！摄影，我真的喜欢吗？真的是我想要得吗？可能不是吧，我也不知道。要说的话，应该说是拿来逃避寻找一份正经工作的借口吧。每当想起我的人生，都会觉得很可悲。不过我真的很庆幸我有一班很好的朋友。比亲戚，比家人，比爸妈更了解我的朋友。但，随着时光的流逝， 女的会嫁人，男的会成家立业， 始终我还是一个人。找个女朋友吧，一位学长对我说的话。以前的我应该会很赞成，但现在的我坚决说不。可能是阴影吧，受过了伤害，不知觉的自我保护了起来，不会再像以前那样那么的喜欢一个人，也不会付出那么多。以前的我会为了我喜欢的人做很多事， 虽然绝大部分都是很幼稚的，但现在的我，就算喜欢，也不会做些多余的举动，慢慢的让感觉淡化。还会出现吗？能让我死心塌地，让我疯狂，让我无怨无悔牺牲一切的爱上的女生。如果真的出现了，那她将会是改变我一生的人。写着写着，好像有点离题了， 悲伤不起来，也不想哭了。不写了，剩下的就留给下一次想哭的时候吧。

我的未来

最近，身边的朋友都一直在讨论着他们的未来。而我，却一点头绪也没有，也没有任何的打算。我相信船到桥头自然直，时候到了，就自然会知道该做什么。对于单身的我，也对自己没有任何的要求，也没渴望些荣华富贵的生活，只要吃得饱，睡得安，我就很满足了。假设日后有工作，薪水不必很高，够给家用及自己的基本生活费就够了。虽然我对我家人的感情并不深，但给家用还是必需的，毕竟也是个责任。其实，在大学的三年里，是我人生中最开心的，过去十多年从来没有真正开心过的日子，也已经忘得一干二净了。我很满足了。如果我的生命就这样突然结束，我也不会后悔。只是，会有点遗憾，到最后，还是单身一人。如果当初，我有女朋友的话，现在的我因该会很有成就，我会尽我最大的努力，给她最大的幸福。至少我当初是这样想的。但，现在已经迟了，跟现在的我在一起，绝对不会有幸福的。所以，我决定了，坚持一定要单身，没有梦想，也没有理想，随随便便简简单单的过完我的余生。

Brunei Trip

At brunei now.. haha.. just reach and then direct go yo Jerudong Park. But sadly, all the major entertain machine has been sold to other country, so just left the minor one. Nothing much to see, but not so disappointed also because i just plan to go Brunei to online only..haha..Let u all see some photo took from the park la..

Celebrating Father Day

Celebrating Father Day one day earlier. As usual, we just go to eat dinner and of course in on my treat..haha.. But this time really cheap, 2 meat, one vege, one tofu and one soup only RN65.50..hehe..

One really funny incident happens during the dinner. The waiter serves us the wrong dish. And we have ate some of the food. Then they just came and told us they have served the wrong dish. I told them never mind, just put it there, but they said the customer that order the food cant wait anymore, they are going to serve them the food that we have ate some of it. OMG!!! I really cant imagine how the customer will react if they know that fact..haha..

*My sister is taking this photo, so she is not in there..hehe..

Things that I dislike about you

I dislike you smoke - endanger my health

I dislike you drink - lots dirty words flow from your mouth

I dislike your hot temper - always raise your tone when you speaks, especially to my mum

I dislike your attitude - always do irrelevant things that causes inconvenience to your family

I dislike your irresponsibility - owe the bank so much money (5 digits) and your children have to pay for you

I dislike you - never listen to your wife even though she is correct

The other you:

I dislike your money comes first - everything money comes first, enjoyment with money is not allowed

I dislike your thinking - always thinks bad about other and talks bad about them

I dislike your suspiciousness - always over suspicious the others

Conclusion, there are nothing I like about you two, and the others too.

Stress!!!

Shit! My dad gets drunk and he scold my mum with some rude words. Plus I cant really stand my mum over-money-saving attitude. This kind of family really made me stress, really don't know why I went back home at first. Now I just wish that someone in Penang can "sou liu" me. Really wish to go back Penang so badly!

Ticket Sold Out T.T

Just now planning to go watch Kung Fu Panda 2 at cinema, but unfortunately, the ticket sold out, so cant watch. But never mind, because tomorrow will be go watch again. This time will buy the ticket earlier. Since we were unable to watch the movie, we then follow our dad went to meet his friends at some coffee shop. Then at there, me and my sis and my bro chat for 2 hours plus, this is the longest chat ever for me and my sis..haha.. We talk about many things, then I ask them some riddle and we talk about each other experience. It was fun..hehe..